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Little Bits: July & August On Instagram

I have mentally written out this post at least a dozen or so times in the past week, but it doesn't make sitting down and actually doing it any easier. To be blatantly honest, I have been going through some personal issues for the past month or so, and blogging has been too hard. A lot of things have been too hard. Blogging has always been an outlet for me, conversational as it is. However, how does one keep up with a lifestyle blog when her life becomes too difficult to talk about? It is something everyone with a social media account (aka EVERYONE) has to come to terms with time-to-time. When something good happens to us, we are only too excited to share and talk about it. When something bad happens, we tend to get hesitant. I'll always be the first one to poke fun at myself to make light of the situation, but there are occasions when the situation is too tender to begin to know how to deal.

In the past month, I have handled things terribly. I panicked, again, and again. I left work early several times and am now more behind than ever. I cried at my desk, in the bathroom, to my parents, to my friends. I expected too much from the wrong person and drove them away. I found the right people to talk to and am more thankful than I can ever imagine. I am lucky enough to have friends reach out to me, and be there for me, even when I wasn't ready to talk. Because it is too hard to talk about, I will leave off with some fun memories from the past two months:

-A busy, but fun 4th of July weekend was had.
-Two incredible camping trips happened in July, with two amazing groups of people. I don't know how my tiny car will haul one, but this Party Cat would like a kayak!
-Work has been busier than ever. Why is this good? Because keeping busy keeps my mind busy.
-I had a blast on a little trip out to Trout Lake with my amazing friend Dani and a her friends. Caught a nice sunset and had a great time.
-I may have summered the hell out of this summer, but I am a fall-ball to the fullest. Bring on the pumpkin spice lattes! ;)

I have every intention of continuing this blog, but like a lot of things in my life right now, it will have to be a slow process. In the meantime, onto the next adventure!

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Little Bits: June On Instagram

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Little Bits: May On Instagram

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I like to learn things slow

I like learning a lot

I like to get it all again and in the end

You know you get what you got

I like to mean what I say

But it don't always come through

'Cause if i say it all again, again, again

It doesn't make it more true

~Lingering Still, She & Him, Vol.2

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At the beginning of this month I bought a ukulele. When you are trying to watch funds and can't seem to find time to get anything done, buying an instrument you have no idea how to play is a great idea, correct? I also have several crafting projects to work on for the house, clothing to make/repair, an epic summer party to plan, comics to read, books to read, shows to catch up on/start, and find one of the several people who have offered to show me how to play Magic the gathering and get them to actually do it. Oh, and I am learning how to juggle now.

It isn't even halfway through the year, and these past few months have been huge months of change. Several of my friends have switched jobs recently, so it has been an adjustment seeing people at different times. I have met, and became very close with some new friends this year, and it has been hard to imagine that I had lived so long without them there. It has been a learning process, and sometimes it is exciting, and other times it has been terrifying. I love learning new things, and I like learning them slowly because I want to savor the experience, it is important. Each trial is unique, and I have gradually learned over time to appreciate the things I do wrong.

For instance; learning to love myself. I have to remember to take care of myself first because it isn't anyone else's job to save me, that is fantasy. Don't get me wrong, having a great support system is one thing, and much needed at times, but taking care of myself is crucial in order for me to be a friend/sister/daughter/wife/etc. Having to relearn this slowly over time is important, because each lesson makes me stronger, smarter. Just like learning that softballs are not a good substitute for hacky sacks when learning to juggle after smacking myself in the face for the third time in a row. Lesson learned.

It may be three months before I am able to serenade my friends with a ukulele song, it might be three years. I might never be able to juggle more than two balls (ha) at once, I might learn how to juggle twelve. I know for certain that I have strong love for many of people in my life, and that I am forever grateful for them. I will make mistakes, but hey, life is a classroom (or whatever the kids say these days). I just know that when I look back on it all, I will know that I had fun, and that I had great love.

Happy Wednesday!