This Guy10:39 AM
Yes, a slightly mushy post today. Sorry, not sorry. I know I have mentioned that Kyle and I have been busy as hell, and that the past two months have been rough, well that is completely true. Kyle stupidly enrolled in three courses at Oakland University this semester while working full-time, because I stupidly enrolled in three courses each semester while working full-time when I was there. There is just the internal battle of wanting to do well and be less stressed vs just getting school over with, so I fully understand.
With Kyle being in school, all of his time is taken up. He barely even sleeps, and when he does, he is out. This leaves all of the household duties up to me, cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, walking the dog, making sure bills are paid, etc. This was a whole hell of a lot easier when we lived in a tiny apartment in comparison to a house. Don't get me wrong, our house is not very big by any means, but there is still a noticeable difference. Again, you people with kids, I commend you.
So where does this leave us? It leaves us bickering, exhausted, frustrated, and most of all, it leaves us with barely any time together. To be honest, our schedules have almost always been off, ever since we started dating. But there is a difference now. One would think that we would be used to it, and we are to a degree, but it doesn't mean that it isn't hard.
When I was in school, I didn't mind if Kyle sat around watching TV while I studied, I could study anywhere. In a bar, in a coffee shop, while a movie was on, it didn't matter. For Kyle it is a different story. He is much better at remembering lectures than I ever was, but completely horrible at studying. He needs complete silence, and even if I am home and being quiet, I can't be in the same room unless he is "in the zone".
Again, frustrating. But how can I stay angry with him? I can't. This guy, who's job is 10x more demanding than mine, who after working 9 hours last night still drove someone home who didn't have a ride, someone who lives a good 30 minutes away round-trip. This guy who gets up early on Sundays and sneaks off to buy my favorite bagel while I am still in the shower, and despite how busy he is, will watch Liam for a few minutes so I can squeeze a small run in during the week.
Lets not forget that he
lets asks me to cut his hair for him. Me, the woman who is famous for destroying my own tresses, as well as breaking things, is the one he wants to cut his hair.
Also, there are the times when I dressed him him as my favorite Doctors, and he just took it. Smiled even. There is love right there.
So in the end, despite all of the frustration, anxiety, and melt-downs, I can say that over everything I am proud of him for sticking with it. It is the worst thing in the world to hear people say "You STILL work at Mc Donalds? You are STILL in school?" why yes, yes he is. He loathes it, but sticks with it because he is fucking awesome like that. And that makes me love him (and miss him) even more.