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This is primarily a life-blog and I do not have much to report on the life-front. I feel like I am so very behind on all of the things that I want to do, I have too many interests, too many passions. I love blogging, I love crating outfits, I love watching movies, reading books, spending time online, listening to music, long walks with my dog, long walks with my friends, decorating my house, planning events, running, spending time with my family, spending time with Kyle. All of these wonderful things have been preventing me from getting any wedding planning done lately. Between my job, running, and trying to keep the house at least a little in-order, I am exhausted at the end of a workday. The weekends have been packed with holidays, birthdays, and siblings visiting.

All the while, I have been thinking of the future. My job is not the worst job; I do like the actual work I do. There are people I work with who drive me bat-shit crazy, but I am almost 27 years old. I have hand some-sort of job since 15, if you don’t count the years of paper-routes and babysitting prior to that. There will always be people who drive you to the deep-end. But this is not where I want to stay for the rest of my life. I first and foremost, want to be a writer. I have not written anything since a poetry workshop I took on a whim back in 2010. I never really knew what I was going to write, short stories? A novel? (I am a horrible poet). I am finally brewing some ideas, and revisiting old material. I don’t aim to be famous, I don’t aim to be any sort-of “serious” author only a small group of select individuals know about either. I just want to write something, and have it published somewhere. Even if I have to do all of it on my own, and only close friends and family read it, after I beg them. Then what? I don’t know. I love the city; I love seeing Detroit, the “dying” city change and grow. I love my little suburb, I live in what I have nicknamed “Ghetto Pleasantville” that is Oak Park. It’s loud, it’s crude, but caring. I think I would love to work for a University, in an English department. Maybe helping students get a vague idea for their own future.

 In the meantime, I have to find a balance in embracing al of the things that I want to do, that I dream about, and that I have to do. I need to just focus and tackle one thing at a time.

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Dress, Jacket & belt-Thrifted
Purse & beads-Gifts

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  1. Love your moccasins and bag!

    And I'm 30 and still don't truly know what I want to be when I grow up - so you are not alone!

  2. I think its awesome that you write. Just don't push yourself to do something major. As it is..you are writing about life..and thats a great first person start.

    Love your bag.

  3. Sweet outfit. I'm glad to hear of your passions. Stay your wonderful self.

  4. This is cool. I'm wishing you the best in your passions. I'm happy that you blog. Sweet outfit! btw.

    And thanks much for all your comments, too.

  5. Having many interests is an admirable trait even if, as you're seeing, balance is elusive. You'll figure it out. The people to pity are those without curiosity.

    You write well and that was the second thing that drew me to your blog. I always enjoy your prose. You can and should develop that; there are certainly places where you could publish and acquire some social prestige. When you have some work, let me know and I'll steer you to appropriate places.

  6. You look adorable seriously. This is the kind of 'effortlessly cute' look that every person everywhere is trying to pull off 90% of the time.
    Secondly. I have had the same feelings lately. 'I want to do X but I can't seem to find the time to do X, so maybe I don't love it as much as I think since I have all this other stuff I'd rather be doing?' It's confusing and frustrating and I don't have any advice.
    Except that I've heard it's REALLY easy to get a romance novel published so maybe you could start there ;)

  7. i always wanted to be a mom, and i am...so i got that wish! but career-wise, i am not where i want to be. but i'm happy...i can't have it all. (or can i?) and shybiker said basically what i wanted to say on your writing. and since i can't be that eloquent, i will just say, "ditto".

  8. aww, girl. maybe a longer think through with a short get away might ease your mind! i think its the adulthood attack syndrome! nevertheless i wish u all the best!!x


  9. Oh, I think we have kind of days like you are having. Wishing you positive thoughts.

    You look great in this outfit!

  10. you are looking good sara love the shoes

    haha you describe Oak Park so well. I hope the the best for you Sara.

  11. I loved this post Sara! I know how you're feeling because I feel the same way a lot. Really often actually. I wish I had some advice to make it all easier but I'm pretty much stuck in the same boat. I will say that, at least in my own opinion, at least you're (we're) trying lots of new things and finding out what we like and enjoy. It can be overwhelming and confusing but you never know unless you explore your creativity to the fullest (or at least that's what I keep telling myself!) Just know I'd read whatever you wrote, no begging required! Xo Lori

  12. I LOVE your denim jacket. You are too cute, Sara! :)

  13. love that jacket with your dress. great combo.

  14. I'm finding that I really need to take a step back as well and not try to tackle so many projects. It's like i'm addicted to keeping busy, but there is no way I can keep at this pace forever! So i totally hear ya lady. Keep trucking, but do what you love and save some time for yourself and your sanity! :) Write on!

  15. I'm having such hair envy right now! Ahh your bangs! They remind me of Joey Ramone, which is the best ever.ever xx

  16. I totally get the needing to balance all the things you want to do, sometimes I feel a bit over my head.. :)

    I adore your hair btw!

    Style by Joanne

  17. I love how your dress flares out, it's very flattering and fun. (Sorry for the alliteration, haha.)

    I think you're in a good place right now, Sara. You recognize you do have it pretty good right now- a loving fiance (and an exciting wedding in your future), a supportive fun family, an affectionate pup, a community online, a cute little house, passions (a lot of people have no idea what the word "hobby" even means), and a job you don't mind. However, while it's great to be grateful, you're allowed to reach for more. If you aren't interested in a job overhaul (and honestly, with everything else going on in your life right now and the economy, that might be a little ambitious), it might be good to start pursuing hobbies that could potentially lead to more opportunities or give you the confidence to strive for said opportunities. There are a lot of easy ways to jump start writing. Most communities have really supportive writers' groups (and this isn't undergrad anymore, so people will probably be more encouraging than emo), which can involve classes or simply a writing partner/mentor to inspire you. I would recommend those if you're looking to get your fiction going. It's like having an exercise buddy, simply knowing someone is counting on you can motivate you. However, if you're curious about nonfiction, I'd suggest trying to freelance for a few publications. Most magazines and newspapers subsist on freelancers anyway and like proactive people coming to them. I know you've written music reviews before, so maybe it's time to call up that connection again? Just test the waters and see what you like. After all, Time Magazine's book critic (and author himself) Lev Grossman said that he started his reviewing career by freelancing on the side of his day job. I have faith in you and if you ever want someone to take a gander at your writing, I'm more than willing to. I hope everything works out.

  18. Hi Sara!!! Your dress beautiful!!!

    Kisses rose jp

  19. Day by day, that's what I TRY and do or else it gets overwhelming. You should def get back into writing if you enjoyed it so much and you can count me in, I'll read your stuff!


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