Not Alone1:20 AM
Now that school is over and I am awaiting my final grades, I have begun to look at my long list of things I want to tackle in the near future. Everything from house projects to cooking, repairing clothing, and of course working on wedding plans. First and foremost however, I am in need of spending lots of time with friends to make up for all of the times I have spent in a classroom or sitting indoors on beautiful days doing homework and studying for exams. Friday night, Jamie and I decided to get all dolled up and head out with the gang to a new place that opened up in Ferndale called Orchid. We ended up dancing like crazy and having a great time, and the next day Kyle and I ended up heading down town Detroit to Grand Trunk with Mark and Mariah. It was great seeing people out on Campus Martius ice-skating, I can't wait to go this year!
I am still majorly stressed about my final grades because my capstone term paper was a demanding one, but I am also completely exhausted. I am not sure if I will find a job I want with my degree, I am going to have a lot more bills to pay with all those student loans I have to repay and I know I will miss buying new pens and notebooks each fall. One thing is for certain: I don't regret it. It was really hard working full time and making the drive out to the school at night, and often on weekends to work on papers and projects. I hated the stress of making sure I had the correct classes, and that I was registered on time and filing for student loans was hell. There has not been one night this week where I haven't had a melt-down of sorts and cried over it all. I am exhausted, I am tired of people asking me what I am going to do with my life and I just want to rest and not worry about any of it for awhile. I know that I brought this upon myself, I knew that it would be hard and it was my decision. But I would never change any of it, not even if end up where I am at forever because as hard as it was, there is too much good that outweighs the bad. Yes, I may have bawled my eyes out all week due to stress, but through school I have made some great friends, and some amazing memories. This last semester alone has great short-story potential whenever I feel the motivation hit to write it out. I am excited for the next chapter, with the help of a good week's rest and some friend-therapy. Because all the hard things in life make those moments even more amazing and make me really appreciate them to the fullest extent.
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